“Nobody ever did, or ever will, escape the consequences of his choices.”
~ Alfred A. Montapert
A.A. Thought for the Day
I no longer try to escape life through alcoholism. Drinking built up an unreal world for me and I tried to live in it. But in the morning light the real life was back again and facing it was harder than ever, because I had less resources with which to meet it. Each attempt at escape weakened my personality by the very attempt. Everyone knows that alcohol, by relaxing inhibitions, permits a flight from reality. Alcohol deadens the brain cells that preside over our highest faculties and we are off to the unreal world of drunkenness. A.A. taught me not to run away, but to face reality. Have I given up trying to escape life?
Alcohol's ability to allow me to escape is what seduced me. All of my worries and insecurities would dissolve with alcohol, my behaviour while drinking would, of course, fuel even more worry. The more I drank the more I needed to escape - a crazy cycle. Even today I still attempt to escape at times - when I catch myself telling a lie or avoiding a responsibility, but at least I am catching these things a doing something about them. Escape is not the answer and only leads down a dark road.
~ Mike
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